My fiance and I decided to wait til marriage for sex. I really want to squirt for him on our wedding night. I personally don’t want to have sex til we are married, but I have tried masturbating more. I am a novice and I can’t get myself to squirt. I feel so horny and guilty because I am a Christian, but that is a natural feeling right? I feel bad, but ever since he proposed it’s gotten worse. My pussy gets wet thinking about him. I got so horny in the middle of university today I went to the bathroom. I stroked my clit and lightly thumped it. My pussy was practically dripping, but I still haven’t squirted. I kept going until I was about to moan. I didn’t want people to hear me. I let my panties get nice and wet so I could feel it in class. Can you guys give me techniques to cum? I really want to squirt all over him. I don’t want to use a dildo. Tonight I am experimenting with a banana. My pussy is dripping as I write this and I feel guilty. ;_; Do you guys ever leave things in your pussy to help you get over being horny? I think it would make me feel better if I felt something in me in class. I think at least feeling something like a dick in me in class would help calm my urges, and I like feeling it would be my dirty secret. I feel bad, but I also have dreams of him thrusting his dick in me. And I really like it. I want him to lick it and make love to me and thrust until I can’t walk. I want him so suck on my breasts and dominate me. I want to ride his dick so badly. I feel my panties are soaked right now and I feel guilty but I can’t help it.:(
I understand what you are feeling I am a Christian too. I do feel guilty like you do but, eventually I learned even though I know it is hard, to control how wet you get. Here is a technique I use. All I do is think about the downside of sex and it scares me enough to no make me wet. All it takes is self control
Don’t EVER feel guilty!! Being horny is perfectly natural and healthy. Because you’re a Christian I would like to share some history with you. Ok, so the part about pre-marital sex is a pretty widespread belief, but not many people know where the more vague sense of guilt and shame surrounding masturbation originates. The original anti-masturbation philosophy comes from pre-Chritian Jewish texts on the Sin of Onan. Onan was male, first of all, and his Sin was “spilling his seed upon the ground”. Not many people know that this was actually a reference to him pulling out in order not to get a woman pregnant, not masturbation. Now why was this even a problem? Well, back in the day, men were thought to only have a certain, limited supply of sperm (see Monty Python “Every Sperm Is Sacred”) and we know now that this is medically incorrect because men constantly produce sperm (even if it slows down later in life). This was not just a Christian belief because even the Kama Sutra from India warned men against “wasting” their supply. So, Onan was basically punished for no reason. And even with this logic, you being female do not have sperm so even if you choose to adhere to the religious significance of this, you’re actually always within your right to masturbate (and obviously you are anyway). Thought you might like to know about that 🙂
It’s so sexy about wanting to feel your wetness and have something secret inside of you, especially in class. I read this post a couple days ago and the next day I had to go do the same thing (also in college). Do you know what Ben Wa balls are? You should look into them. They’re these roundish, egg-shaped devices sold in sex stores that you put in as far as you can and then leave them. The idea is they are supposed to massage the inside of your vagina and tone your muscles (which makes sex awesome and helps avoid certain medical problems down the road). They also rub up against your G-spot while you sit in a chair (especially if you grind back and forth) or while you walk around which builds up the feeling until you are ready to “take care of your urges.” I would love to get some!
dont stress to do things FOR the guy. just enjoy yourself when u do get to your wedding night. not every girl can squirt. i have very intense orgasms but nothing ever comes out. my boyfriend likes me that way, and i think yours will too. so dont feel pressure to squirt.
also, dont feel bad masturbating. its a normal part of life. its good u know your body. when i started masturbating i thought that only guys should masturbate but it was immoral for girls. idk why i thought that, maybe cuz guys talked about it more that we did. i felt like i was somehow abnormal and my sex drive was too high when i started masturbating and used to feel so guilty. but now i enjoy it and my boyfriend with whom im in a long distance relationship encourages me to masturbate and we sometimes do it together on skype.
Wow, Luna, I love your response. 🙂