I’m so aroused right now I cant stand it. It’s getting so bad. I need to be with a girl so badly. It’s physically painful. Every day is like torture. About a year ago I got the chance to kiss a girl. She was straight but she had been drinking a little and we ended up kissing. I was so nervous, I got overexcited. I felt myself getting more and more aroused as we were kissing but I didnt want to stop kissing her. We were like sitting next to each other on the couch. I kept my hands like at my sides because I was so incredibly nervous. I wanted to touch her so badly. She had huge incredible breasts. At one point I felt them rub up against my arm. I was trying to hard not to get too excited but it just happened. I’m literally so pathetic. I was so afraid of it happening. I tried so hard to control my facial expressions but I accidentally moaned and she pulled away and just stared at me like I was a freak. I was like shaking and moaning, and I’m sure I was making all sorts of weird faces. It felt like I was orgasming forever, I dont know how long it was. I just remember wishing it would stop. After I tried to apologize but she just got up and left. You have no idea how humiliating it was for me. It was so awkward. I cried all night. This is so embarrassing but I needed to tell someone and everyone seems to be so honest on this site with how they feel. It was horrible, I felt so lonely and embarrassed after. I literally spent all night crying and frantically masterbating, I couldnt stop. I dont think I’m ever going to get to be with a girl. I dont know what I would have done if I had made it past kissing her. I’m extremely self conscious about my body. I know this is super weird, but when I get aroused, it swells up so much. It like sticks out, alot. I’ve never been able to go swimming around other girls, because I’ll get excited and its noticeable. It like sticks out much further than my lips. I cant wear yoga pants for the same reason. I know it’s not really normal because I look at pics of naked women online. It’s so awful. Sometimes I’ll literally cry if I’m touching myself I hate it so much. Usually when I have to masterbate I’ll just hump my bed, since it sticks out so much if I just rub myself on something I’ll have an orgasm. Please dont laugh or anything but when I’m fantasizing sometimes I’ll think about rubbing myself against another woman and having it go a little bit inside her. O even thinking about sex with a woman now it’s throbbing. I feel like such a freak.
First off, you are NOT a freak. I presume ‘it’ is your clitoris, and the fact that it enlarges like that may in fact be a turn on for some girls. And the fact that you had an orgasm (I presume) just from kissing her, is again something many a lesbian/bi would find super hot. Forget about the straight ‘curious’ girls, look for real lesbians and bi’s. Find out about your local LGBT group, they often have people who can give you support and help, advice. Finally, if you are really worried about your anatomy, it would perhaps be advisable to see a doctor about it. I know it is hard to talk about that to someone, but they also may be able to give you reassurances or advice.
Mmm U sound so sexy if it was me you were kissing id of let U rub my tits lick and suck them do whatever you want. Wouldn’t mind rubbing my wet pussy on yours I bet it would feel so gd our juices mixing.
I am married to a man but I fantasise about girls. It’s ok, you shouldn’t be ashamed of your body or who arouses you. I masturbate thinking about girls tribbing, rubbing their pussies together. Your huge clit and lips would be perfect for that.
My pussy needs some attention
Hey I couldn’t help reading this and I was completely interested in your story. You shouldn’t feel like a freak an you have no reason to. Not all women are the same an we all have different things about us that make us sexually unique. And from what I read you have something very special that you should learn to fully appreciate and come to love about yourself. So don’t feel bad about anything I’m sure you’ll find the perfect women to experiment and practice with so no problem. And just remember there are plenty of women on hear who may have a similar experience or something close to what your experiencing so don’t worry. You sound like a very attractive and outstanding women so don’t doubt that okay 😉
P.S. I thought your story was very arousing.
Not gonna lie, the thought of you grinding up on me and being so aroused and hot and swollen is making me sooo wet. I’m playing with my own clit right now, thinking of you teasing me by slipping a bit inside me, that sounds so sexy
I have twins who are 15 months old and my boobs are 36DDD
I am so wet and I need some attention
girlll that sounds so sexy. promise you’re not a freak, I’m actually jealous of how u get your pleasure. I’d love ou play with you, stroking your swollen clittie, licking at it til you were on the verge of pleasure, and finally sending you over the edge with my tongue as I slipped one finger inside you. after I’d want you rubbin all over me, kissing me, fondling my perky D cup titties, rubbin all over. mmmm make me cum baby!!
Hey sweetie–it sounds like you’re having a hard time with your feelings. It’s perfectly okay to like girls. Its part of who you are, and you’ve gotta accept it. I know it’s hard with people saying that the only acceptable sexual orientation is straight, but honey, they’re wrong as hell! You’re just as fantastic whether you’re straight, lesbian, bi, you name it. Your first step is to talk to someone you trust about it. Maybe even joining an online group with other girls going through the same feelings as you are will help. You’ll see that you are NOT alone. Don’t be ashamed of who you are. And don’t be ashamed of your body! God made you the way you are and it’s beautiful. A lot of women have a larger clitoris, and it’s normal for anyone’s to swell up when they’re aroused (thanks, biology) As for the swimming part, have you considered those swim skirts? I have a tankini with one of those, and they would cover it up. Please don’t feel like a freak, and don’t hate yourself. A lot of people have gone through or are going through what you are, and it’s going to get better 🙂 You just have to be honest with your feelings and build a little support network, even if its an online community. Best of luck, and I hope things work out for you. 🙂
Yum a big swollen clit- how sexy- it sounds so sensitive. Bet a nice soft girl tongue would only need to flick over it a few times before the pussy is gushing. Mmmm I’m gunna rub my pussy whilst imagining that sexy clit now x
Thank you so much for your comments. It really helps. M-that’s such a good idea with the swim skirt, then I wouldnt have to be so nervous about getting excited because the skirt would hide it. I havent been swimming in so many years. Thank you for your help too Dont worry- I have been to a gyn before. I went when I was younger, around 16. It wasnt a good experience. It was my first time going and I was really scared and I was in the room and the nurse came in first and she was very attractive, she of course told me to take my clothes off and put on the slip. She was only in the room for like a minute but she smelled like lavender and she was wearing scrubs and I could see the outline of her breasts and I got aroused. I remember sitting on the table excited after she left the room and trying so hard to think about anything else so that it would unswell. The doctor came in and she was older, but I was already extremely excited so when she examined me she saw it. She said ‘oh’ and seemed surprised when she looked at me, and I was so embarrassed but I asked her if I was normal, and she just said that there was nothing actually wrong with me physically. I was almost hoping there was so that maybe I could do something about it. It’s so frustrating. I get aroused so much during the day. I can like feel it press up against my jeans, its so uncomfortable. MMMM – It is really sensitive. This is embarassing please dont laugh or anything but sometimes when I have to masterbate I take my thumb and finger and stroke it. I hate having to masterbate myself, especially that way but I need release so badly. I always feel so awful when I touch it but I cant stop myself. I literally cry almost every time after, partially because its such a release but mostly because I hate it so much. Its just when I do it that way it feels so good. It feels so much better than if I just rub myself up against something. I can’t believe I wrote what I think about. I was mortified after I hit submit but you all have been so understanding. I feels so incredibly good to actually talk about how I feel. I was so turned on by the comments and it was such a relief to have someone understand. I wish so badly I could talk to you guys privately. I’m so desperate. I have to masterbate myself so often. I cant stop doing it. I rub it over and over and fantasize about being on top of a woman and rubbing against her and putting myself inside her and feeling her. Those are my most private thoughts, the thought of having myself be inside another woman. I’ll sometimes take my pointer and middle finger and touch myself so they’re really wet and then make a v and hump it over and over thinking about having sex with a girl. I can only imagine what it would feel like. Thinking about it drives me crazy. I look at pictures of naked women when I get privacy and watch videos of women tribbing. O no I have to now so badly. I need release again. I just want these feelings to stop. I’m so lonely and it’s so painful. I cant take it. I dont know what else to do
Omg. I want to suck on that clit. I just came thinking about you sliding it inside me…..
Qtkristen It is really hard to feel so different and out of place. It is even harder when difference is viewed as disgusting. Some people who do not understand it are like that. Your difference makes you unique and I know for a fact that you are not the only woman out there with this endowment. If it is sensitive also it will bring a lot of pleasure to you and the one you find. I personally like to have a bit more in my mouth if you know what I mean. Just thinking about you tingling with pleasure gets me excited. I hav never had experience with a woman but I would love to give pleasure to my partner. If I knew you I would experiment with you if you wanted or I would just listen and be your friend. I have a lot of friends who are nervous about their differences. You are special. Remember that most of all.
Sweetheart there is no reason to be embarrased. If you need someone to talk to privately i will be here. My name on here is the same as my skype.
I would love to talk. You guys have been so understanding. I’ve never used skype before, but my email is qtkristin20 at hotmail dot com
This is so sweet
Your story was so hot! I haven’t cum that hard in a long time. Don’t feel bad about having a larger swollen clit. I do as well. You and I could have sooooo much fun ;-D
I wish you knew how beautiful you actually are. I have never met you before but I feel as if I’ve known you for years; for I’ve experienced similar feelings after masturbating. You are no different from any of the other women on this earth. You are brave for speaking up about your private thoughts and practices. You are a beacon of hope for those who continue to read these posts and silently suffer from similar feelings. I want you to know that you are normal, don’t be ashamed of your sensitive clitoris; it is only another part of your body that makes you beautiful. Recognize your beauty within and embrace it.
I’d love to blow you! You should be proud of your big clit-girls love them! I’ve been fucked by a biggie and it was so hot. Thinking of you jerking yourself off has my pussy leaking all over my sheets!
I would love for your to fuck me
Omg I’m so aroused maybe I am a little bi
im horny too because I want sex and I have a big cock but cant find anyone to have sex with me
Caine ~ Are you saying that nobody will have sex with you because your cock is too big? :O
First of all I’m a straight woman, but the advice is still the same. Everyone’s bodies are different. I wouldn’t worry about it if I were you!!! It sounds more like since she was drinking, that possibly when you moaned she was knocked back into reality and left because she too was also embarrassed. I used to think I wasn’t “normal” because I don’t have inner lips/labia minora and thought something was wrong because of this, but it’s quite beautiful I’ve been told! As for feeling like a freak and pathetic because you get that excited while kissing is also normal for many. I’m one of those woman who can be kissing a man and cum & orgasm from just kissing him ;). It actually makes for an incredible sex life when you can do this. You should feel bad for the many women that can’t orgasm at all, no matter what they do or is done to them. So be happy about it and don’t worry about that girl.
All this makes me so wet
I am having masterbaiting and what i need to do to help me masterbait
I’m playing with myself reading this and l need someone to talk to me!
You’re all glorious sluts